patience young grasshopper

So here i was, blogging as usual on the internet.

Wonderful thing the internet, a frustration as well as a distraction. Why, just a paragraph ago, a small child thought it was fun too see what i was doing and delete my progressive blog.

WOW CHARMING ABSOLUTELY AMAZING.

Anyway, that’s not the great issue here. What i’m getting at is the WHY kid.

As some of you know, and some of you dont, the Why kid is a child or adult that continually ask an obvious question or observation. For example:

“Why are you killing that man in the game?”
“Because i can,”
“why?”
“because i can”
“Why can you not kill him,”
“because i dont want to,”
“Why?”

This usually encompasses hair pulling and girls calling each other camel toes, etc etc and extreme frustration at how you would shut the kid/adult up. Now i am a person who frowns at capital punishment, but every time this happens YOU JUST WANT TO SLAP THE SPARKLES OUT OF THEM.

What kind of nonsense is this, “love the children” and “they are our future” Cr@p?

Good lord.

I need headphones.

Like a professional

I might be closing all my accounts that involve my tag name within this year, including this blog.

Sure that sounds totally ridiculous and regrettable, but i realised something.

Ten years from now someone is going to recall a certain time of event that i did something or other. And i dont want all that incriminating or scandalous shit held against me.

Most likely, ill have to either go underground with a new tag and make my accounts untraceable when i have a job in the future. Most cases its really easy to track down personal and valuable infomation with software and websites, and whether it is legal and illegal in some cases. It still can be done.

So savour the next few months guys, cause it may or may not happen

Children

Last saturday, i obligingly went with my mother to go to her morning dharma talk with her sangha shit and they talk about all this meditative shit and yeah.

Anyway, i swore to make a point.

The point is, that religion is a excuse by the authorative power in that context which uses and abuses its power to manipulate the common proletariat.

Nah im just pulling your leg.

Anyway, the thing is. I was unwillingly volunteered into looking after these two little darling children while the adults did their thing.

“Why are you so big?” Was the first question the little girls asked me as we sat playing Uno.

“I drank lots and lots of milk” i replied cheerfully “You should too!”

The other black haired girl frowned “Im La-c-tose in-tole-erant,”

I had no idea what to say, and in my case i threw down my last card “Uno,” i said simply.

I played a little while with the children, surprised at their eagerness to ask and state everything
“Your fly is undone!”
“One time my sister was naked and my uncle was scared she was going to poop”
“Look! i can play guitar hero!”

After a while i made the girls come down to eat lunch with the adults. In the middle of eating the brown haired girl looked at me and said “I wish you were my brother”
“dont you have any brothers or sisters?”
“No, but you can be my brother”

I looked at her with a plain face and smiled.

HEY GAIS AND GRLS

Im really happy when people are reading my blogs and leaving comments on my blog!

Even that guy Tila who keeps asking me if i want to buy a vibrator for my girlfriend.

Anyway i just feel really happy when i get comments cause i know people dont really mind that my blogs make no sense or have any artistic merit

THANKIES

FML

okay im not going to tell anyone in the family about this but ive secretly changed my course preferences around.

I mean like, F@#$ that. im not going to sit around waiting to go into a course that has the word science in it.

I really hate science.

To get a grasp of how much i hate science ive compiled a list of things i would do before i do any science related course.

1. Cut off my manhood
2. Make love to a male
3. Ask a girl out
4. bungee jump with a fat persons underwear
5. sky dive with a bed sheet
6. rub my nipples in public
7. destroy the internet
8. Cut off my fingers
9. drive onto an incoming train
10. Shave my chin

KLU KLUX CLAM

My father is a narcissistic figure.

I remember reading a comment from my favourite author, John Marsden, that boys have to defeat their father at least once in their life.

When i read that part, i thought. What if my fathers dead?
Conveniently, he wrote that ‘bastards’ had to adjust with the notion of becoming less like the man their father appeared in their perception.

Or something like that.

Anyway, this blog was about what had happened earlier, when my father made me drive onto the hume highway for a joyride.

5 minutes on the road was all it took for my dad to fall asleep while i sat there. What ensued in my mind for the whole time he was asleep was:

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And then after i got adjusted to driving, dad conveniently woke up and said, “you took the wrong turn,”

Im going to defeat him one day.

What is lurve?

It can be hard to explain what real love is. Some people get confused because they are not sure if they are in love or whether what they are feeling is luct, or infatuation. To make this a little clearer, it may be easier to describe what love feels like. Some people describe love as having strong feelings of trust and closeness. People often feel more capable of sharing their thoughts and feelings with someone they love. Others say love is just being accepted for who you are with all your talents and faults. These feelings describe what it feels like being in love. Which can mean a different thing to ‘loving someone’ You may ‘be in love’ with your boyfriend or girlfriend, and ‘love’ your sister.

You can experience many feelings and fantasies about wanting to be close to, touch, or have sex with a person, without being in love. True love usually last a long time, whereas infatuation or lust doesn’t. It would be safe to see that people who think they are in love because they are loved actually aren’t. They just enjoy the attention. Sometimes people think that if another person wants to have sex with them, that means they want to have a relationship or that they’re in love with them. This may be true but it isn’t always. Love takes time to grow.

Drive

I once talked to my friend about what they wanted to do in the future. She wanted to become a musician when she grew up. The reality was, she had school and friends to attend to, while keeping in with her parents expectations. She did not party with her friends on a saturday night. She had to study and keep her grades up, just like everyone else.

When i asked her why she didnt follow her dream, she simply said, “Its not that easily done, what i want and what everyone wants are totally different things,”
A reason or a pupose is a combination of “wants” and “don’t wants” When people ask me what my readon for wanting to do something in the future its a combination of deeply emotional ‘wants’ and ‘dont wants’

I will list a few. First with the “dont wants,” for they create the “wants.” I dont want to work all my life. i dont want what my parents aspired me for, which is job security and a house in the suburbs. i dont like being an employee. I hated that my dad always never had enough time for me when he was busy working for his career. I hated it when my dad worked hard all his life and the government took most of hat he worked for. I hated that he was so insecure about the future that he had to take control of mine.

Now the wants. I awnt to be free and travel the world and live somewhere in japan, and settle down with a japanese wife with some children. I want to be young when this happens. I want to have control over my time and life. I want money to work fo me.

Those are my deep seated emotional reasons that drive me towards the “impossible dreams” of mine. Whats yours? If you dont have any strong enough reasons in your life, life is just going to be hard.

Thats a fact.

existence

“The existential view of human nature is captured, in part, by the notion that the significance of our existence is never fixed once and for all; rather. we continually recreate ourselves through our projects. Humans are in a constant state of transition, emergin, evolving, and becoming. Being a person implies that we are discovering and making sense of existence. We pose question such as ‘Who am i? Who have i been? Who can i become? Where am i going?’ There are no pre-existing design and no meaning that are assigned or given to us.”

Fancy that

For some reason ive started to gain weight.

Now for all you little confused children who think gaining weight connotates with getting fat it doesnt.

Getting fat-that little gelatinous substance that is lighter than water and doesnt really complement your figure-is the opposite of gaining weight.

Which means getting muscles.

mmmm mussels.

Anyway so i got these mussels and now i cant fit into my skinny boy clothes.

Fail.